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Monday, 14 January 2008

Raindrops keep falling on my head

It's happening again. This is the time of year when each day feels like a battle. I wake up in a foul mood not wanting to do anything and then hating myself when I get to the end of the day and nothing has been achieved. I can't tell if I am waving or drowning.
The worst thing is it upsets everyone around me, which makes me feel even worse than I did to begin with. There is no rhyme of reason for feeling low. I've done a lot of the strategies I've learnt over the years to try and overcome it: making myself busy, trying to eat regularly and not sleep too much, sitting in front of my special daylight lamp. To be fair, I am much better than I used to be, but I'm still p!ssed off that I get like this at all. Why me?


CannyCat said...

I feel like that with my m.e. sometimes - why am I the only one who can't stay out late and sleep as little as they want and do as much as they want and eat whatever they want whenever they want?!

I think everyone has "something": sad, m.e., ankylosing spondilitis (Tom), extreme weight troubles, general depression....... so you're not alone, entirely :)

blueangel said...

aww thanks cannycat. You are a sweetie.
Fortunately I am much better than I was at the start of this week. Thanks to my lovely BF's support and my friends are really great too.